Idiologist

Sleep….

The world whispers quite words into my ears, it tries to lull me into the warmths of sleep, the deep quiet of the night.  But my mind says no, there is still too much to do, too much to think, too much that I have not done yet to let myslef sleep.  Sleep does not come easy to the restless mind, sleep does not come easy to me.

For the last few weeks sleep has been hard to come by, each night harder to reach as my mind stays awake for hours on end pondering thoughts on everything that is going on, everything that I could be doing and everything that is to come.  I feel as though my mind has awakened to world and it longs to see and learn it all, regardless of the constraints of the body or its needs.  When sleep does come to me it comes for long hours at a time, pulling me into a depth of relaxation and comfort that I know cannot last.  But it is on nights like tonight, when I have to work tomorrow morning, that I wish I wasn’t as restless as I am, that I wish I could sleep.  Now that it is nearing five in the morning I know I will not sleep tonight because I will only have to awake in a few hours time and I will feel worse for wear if I only have that few hours sleep instead of staying awake for it.

~Adam ‘Trigger’ P.